From the back catalogue (7)

Gosh…Sunday come around again already. I can’t keep up. It’s been another busy poetry week.No wonder it went so fast. Albert Poets workshop at The Sportsman’s in Huddersfield. I love those Monday nights, getting feedback on draft poems from people who are on top of the game. I’ve never gone without coming home with an improved piece of work. And there are always surprises, poems that stick in the mind after one hearing. Not surprising, with writers of the quality of Julia Deakin, Carola Luther, John Duffy and Steph Bowgett as regulars. It’s everything a workshop should be…democratic, critical, supportive, and warm. I just needed to write that. I owe a huge debt to groups like these.Wednesday I went to read at The Purple Room…a performance event run by cellist/musician Keely Hodgson at the Wheatley Arms in Ben Rhydding. As it turned out, I was a day early. I asked the guy on the bar: is there a poetry event? Certainly, he said. It’s tomorrow. Are you interested? I was. I drove the 30 miles back home, went back the following night, and read to a lovely listening audience. I read a poem I haven’t done for ages. It’s called Deja Vu. The other performer on the night was very special.Steph HSteph Hladowski is a performer and singing teacher from Bradford who sings unaccompanied (mainly English) traditional folk songs. Google her. You’ll find links to The wild wild berry. The track is on Youtube; you’ll also find links on BBC Music, and more tracks. The thing is, I gave up going to folk clubs some years ago in order to go to poetry clubs where I could read the poems I really wanted to read.

I don’t regret it, and particularly don’t miss some of the things I crammed into  a stand-up piece written in a workshop ; the instruction was to write about a group of people by using only stereotyping, exaggeration and downright lies.


Folk festival folk:

They work in council housing departments

and sing sad songs of flooded seams and firedamp,

poss-tubs, pinnies, lockouts ,blacklegs,

disasters, deprivation.


Or tutors in evening classes;

they know The Ballad of Sir Patrick Spens,

and Matty Grovesby heart; they sing without

accompaniment. And slow. And flat. They never miss

a verse. They sing the chorus after every

one, bring unimagined nuances to

the meaning of interminable.


Or sell insurance; work in call centres,

and sing , at length, about the whaling,

silver darlings, foundering trawlers, ice;

shawled fisherwives on shivering wharves

gazing at the widowing sea.


They drink real ale (the men), are

overweight and thin on top (long at back and sides);

their wives once looked, a bit, (they hoped) like Joan Baez;

they cultivate split ends, and henna.


They believe that all real folk songs

were writ on tablets of millstone grit

brought down from the moors

by Mike Harding and Eliza Carthy

and that Kate Rusby is the Second Coming


They wear, without discrimination,

cheesecloth, tie-dye, leather waistcoats;

regardless of the cold,or drizzle: sandals.

They run to seed, self-righteously. Own tents.


Their children dream of days at Alton Towers,

junk food, Playstations,  X Boxes

and hanging out. Instead, are herded into

story-telling workshops; they are quiet,

and subdued, and, often, pale.

Secretly, they harbour visions

of a terrible revenge.


Something should be diddly-done about it.


But when folk songs are sung by some one with a pure voice, someone with great pitch, with no faked emotionality, by someone who engages imaginatively with the words and the language, and with the people in the songs, someone who understands phrasing, then that’s a different matter. Which is what Steph Hladowski does. It was lovely. It set me thinking about folk tales and folk songs and the differences between them. It set me off thinking about two distinct types of folk songs, too.

Essentially, for me, the folk tale is universal and works deep at the level of a collective unconscious. Its notions of truth, of justice, of right and wrong work at a different level from those of ‘rationalism’. According to the latter, the message of Rumpelstiltskin should be that if you tell lies and break promises you will marry a king and live happily ever after. Ask yourself why the little ugly man who helps the pretend spinner of gold should be so dreadfully punished. Ask yourself what it is that he did wrong, and you realise the answer lies in understanding that he has broken a fundamental taboo.

The folk song, on the other hand, I think, is anchored in its culture, its nationality if you like. Scots folk songs are different from English ones…or, at least one kind of folk song is. There are the ones which are firmly anchored in events, that are an oral historic record from the viewpoint of the folk rather than their ‘rulers’. They tell stories of cruelty on board ships…like the tale of ‘the English sailor, Andrew Rose’, or of terrible shipwrecks like that of the SS Ellen Vannin, lost in the Irish Sea, or of mining disasters like Gresford…of mutiny and popular insurrection like that at Peterloo. And so on. And then there are the generic ones that would be timeless if not for their language. The ones of constant lovers, of betrayed maids, the ones that begin with walking out on a May morning, when larks sing melodious. The ones of young women who disguise themselves as men to seek for their true loves lost in the wars…and so on. These were the sort Steph Hladowski sang so beautifully last Thursday, and I loved every minute of it. Anyway, you should check her out.

The week ended very happily with a day in Sheffield at The Poetry Business Writing Day, and this afternoon with my beloved Batley Bulldogs finishing the season with a great win distinguished by top quality tries. Tomorrow, at the Puzzle Poets Live in Sowerby Bridge I’ll be introducing two of my favourite poets…Clare Shaw and Kim Moore. What a double bill! I couldn’t be more delighted. Right; this week’s backtrack, and I hope you enjoy it.

Now what? Or: What next?

I don’t need many excuses to use this picture. When I was doing A Level Art, my art teacher, Louis Wilde, made me copy it. I mean, really, copy it. It was probably a poor quality reproduction, maybe 4 inches square, at most. He told me I had to figure out how it was all put together. I had to draw it and redraw it. I started to understand what was going on with lines…that strong diagonal of the worktop, the echoed vertical curves of the women’s arms, the shapes made by the orange scarf, the shapes around it. It became more and more abstract the more I looked and looked.

And then I had to paint it and paint it. Bear in mind, this was a Boys’ Grammar School in 1959. I was the only one in the whole 6th form who was doing Art. It was not a well-equipped department. The papers were rubbish. The available paint was powder paint. Still. I struggled and struggled to get the texture of that work top. I put paint on top of paint. I started again. And again. And Louis Wilde just let me struggle. Keep going. he’d say. You’ll see. And I did. I’d have seen straight away if it had been the original, and you can see much clearer with a screen image. But the fact is, there’s hardly any paint on that pale oatmeal-y area at the bottom. Mainly, what you can see is the canvas, as is also true of the top part of the image. He was teaching me to look, was Louis, and I’m still grateful.

Drawing and redrawing the two figures and then painting them made me look at how the upper body is put together, the ways it works. You can feel the weight of bone and flesh and muscle, the ways they flex. I never managed to figure out how Degas managed to suggest that the weight of the figures continues all the way to the unseen floor, hidden by the diagonal line of the worktop. Miraculous. But here’s the kicker…we were into Abstract in 1959. Representional painting was dead. Or unfashionable. Much the same thing, when you’re 16. Louis had me doing synthetic cubism quicker than you could say Braque. So I never really got to think about what the picture was saying about these women and their work. I never for a second considered what Degas was well aware of…their tiredness, the steamy heat…look at that big stove, or copper, or whatever it is…look at the haze of light, muzziness. I was reminded of this, reading U.A.Fanthorpe who voices one of the women in this painting. I can’t remember the title of her poem. But in a footnote, she remarks that Degas got the title of the painting wrong. It’s called Women ironing. Fanthorpe says that these are women trained in a trade involving skill and stamina. They’re professionals. The painting should be called Ironing women.

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Why the odd feeling of flatness? Surely, everything is wonderful? Isn’t this more than you could ever dream of? I remember suddenly realising that Degas wasn’t using much paint at all on that surface that I’d been trying to reproduce by laying paint on paint. I saw how it was done, and what I felt was …deflated. I’d been missing the point all along. Less was much much more. I have to say it was a lot later that I recognised that the women in the picture, their situation, and work and humanity was what mattered, and the technique was a means to an end. Not the end, any more than ‘having a collection’ is an ‘end’. It’s a means of telling what you make of the world.

Poets I love have told me how they went to sleep with their first published collections under their pillow. I watched a poet I love sit in a daze of happiness on the day a parcel of copies of her first collection arrived. I saw her reading the other week, and during her reading she talked about how she’d written nothing, really, for a year after that. Not writers’ block, whatever that is, because I think that describes a kind of desperation. Not wanting to write and being unable. That wasn’t it at all. It was just..not writing.

I haven’t felt it like that. I’ve gone on writing and writing. But I think I may have made a mistake in getting involved in that poem-a-day-April, which coincided with finishing the new collection. I wrote 50+ ‘poems’. I worked on every unfinished draft from two years of going to writers’ workshops. I’ve read them all over and over. I feel as though I’ve spent all my savings in one big splurge, and I’ve nothing to show for it and less to fall back on when it rains. Flat. A bit like realising Degas didn’t use much paint. The ‘is that it?’ feeling. Well, it is what it is, and we’ll ask for the serenity to accept it until it decides to go away. Because it will. In the meantime I found myself writing a series of shortish poems which wonder whether poetry’s all it’s cracked up to be. You know you’re in trouble when you start writing poems about poems. I’ll share them with you. Think of it as confession. Have a read of Auden’s ‘Musee des beaux arts’ first.

The whole of the moon



They give themselves airs, poets,

make large claims on the world,

like starving men

who stake little flags in cairns

in wildernessess of snow and cold.


You don’t get painters doing that,

the ones for whom it’s enough

to sit still, to look and look and look

till they almost believe they know

how the moment works,


the art where you see all of it

at once, at the same moment

as everything else  inside the frame,

right to the very edges

where the moment stops.


A poet wonders how would it be

if the picture went on round

the corner, if you could see

where Breughel’s hunters came from,

and who or what was following.


Poets  tell you what matters

is the moment, but really

they’re hooked on narrative,

the why, the who, the what and when,

the dumb ghosts in the machine.


painters give you everything at once,

you stand in the space where they were,

they gift you their eyes, don’t stand

behind you to explain or point.


Poets are always at your shoulder,

touching your elbow, you can’t

shut them out. You go at their pace,

top to bottom, left to right.


A painter sees the sea, the cliffs,

the clouds, the boy scaring crows,

the ploughman turning clods,

the ship, a splash. Doesn’t write

a title underneath. A poet tells you

what the painter meant.


Through the scrim and scaffolding

of words you will never see

again  the world he saw.



A painter can stop the moment

of a girl lit from a window,

pouring milk from a jug. The milk

makes no sound, a stilled liquid purl.


Intent and still as a cat, a painter

sees a woman ironing, the turn

of her shoulder, the planes

of greenish light, the way flesh

isn’t white at all, how, like snow

it borrows colour, blue and violet.


You look through the eyes of the cat

and see with a start that it’s true,

the way a torso shifts to press

down on an iron, how a finger

moves a strand of errant hair,

how red is the inside of a yawn.


He watches how a dancer watches

herself in a long mirror. He doesn’t

say she loves herself in her froth

of muslin, her satin shoes. He doesn’t

say how tired is the ironing woman,

how hot, or bored, how long the day.


He lends you his eyes and quietly

goes, leaves you to make of it

what you will.

What was all that about? Not for a moment was I thinking of stopping writing to take up painting. I think what was behind it was thinking about the whole purpose of signs and symbols as a way of illuminating the world, celebrating it and the people in it. And at the same time thinking that either I’d said as much as I possibly could, or that however much I did it I’d never say anything particulary new or memorable, or both.

And then you’re given a gift. A poet who says she didn’t write anything for a year after her first collection was published. But who is now writing wonderful new stuff. And another; yesterday, I reblogged a post from Julie Mellor. When you’re finished here, do go and read it. It seems ages since she was a Poetry Business Pamphlet Competition winner, and then seemed to go off the radar (though I’ve kept reminding you how good she is via the cobweb). She’s been quietly working away, listening, watching, researching, absorbing. She’s finding herself in new places, exploring things she hadn’t expected to explore. If that doesn’t cheer me up, nothing can.

So when I write: Now what? Or. What next? you can imagine two distinct ways of saying it. One irritable and tetchy. Or one that say, let’s get cracking. Work to be done. This morning, it’s the second voice, and I’m grateful to the ones who made me feel this way.

And that, I promise, is the last recycled post for a good long time (or so I fervently hope) and next week we’ll be back to what I set out to do in the first place, which is to share my enthusiasm for poets I’ve heard and been excited by. I’m delighted to say that next week, it’ll be a visit from Laura Potts. Come early and get a good seat.

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